My current state of mind

Its really after a long while that i'm writing something on the blog....Why ante, there is no specific reason, i'm like that :)

All of a sudden, now i feel like writing something...but on what??

OK, let me try starting it with my bouncing moods that previous posts talked about. Hmm..i can proudly say that i gained control over them. For good or bad, as usual, i acted proactive and gave an end to everything. after all, i cannot let the little one growing in tummy to be effected by all the negative thoughts that i was carrying before. So all is well on that part.

What else?

Office routine??? yeah...it was no more a routine for me. For a change i became too busy in office. Don't laugh! and don't question me asking how could i write this post if i'm really busy. Come on..its satday. Its just a day out of routine. Otherwise, i have been really busy from past 1 month. The only reason being me nearing the maternity leave. So, all the clients tightened their shoes and cornered me with their priority tasks that i have to finish smoothly before i go on leave. Fine, i think so far i gave the smooth end to all the tasks assigned. And, i don't want any additional tasks be assigned to me at this point of time, so i wrote a simple one liner email stating that today is my last working day (hehe...infact, last working day is 31st Dec, i want to keep myself cool for these 15days) and gave an end successfully there too.

What next??

Current politics??? Wow...a heavy action packed drama happening outside. People who are fighting for United/divided andhra, please don't try to trace & steer your emotions on me. What I'm talking is right. Its just a drama scripted by anonymous writers. How much ever you or i crib, nothing is going to change. Everything is preset. There might be dynamic changes and U turns can take place with the creativity of our over talented writers. But unfortunately, In the world's largest democratic country, a common man has got no role to play in the drama, but remains just as a ploy. The lead players are

- An unemployed creature who does hunger strike with the help of IV fluids in the supervision of highly efficient group of doctors.

- A bada politician & co who wants their burning OMC issue be subsided with all this drama

_ The madam who can just cut the state in to pieces as smoothly as she does with a birthday cake

- The inefficient person who got to sit on CM chair not by choice, but by chance

- The over talented opposition leader who can twist his tongue to 360 degrees on this issue, of course on any issue.

- The poor actor turned politician who does not know any depth of the issue, but makes comic statements like Social telangana. Wonder, even if he knows the meaning of it

- The investors who made huge investments in Hyderabad

- The Media which lost its credibility long back & holds no sense of responsibility over any issue, but only concerned about TRP ratings


After all, we are the ones who buy tickets & cry/laugh along with these actors though we know that its just a scripted one but never real. and knowing even more well that they do it all for themselves and their money, but never for us. So, all we can do now is to keep guessing the run time of this movie and wait for the climax. Hey there..., don't expect the climax be ideal and in favor of us, after all its a political movie. Be ready to watch and digest any disgusting end.


Next what??
Entertainment??? Hmm...the only source of entertainment these days seems to be Sanju. Don't know why, but i don't feel like watching any movie or hook on to any other entertainment source these days. The time that i stay at home, i be either doing home works that sanju assigns to me (Concept of teacher-student) or sleeping or often in kitchen doing some experiments that never seems to be successful or in almost tears with the torture that sanju gives :( Sanju has been really unmanageable these days. Oh God, she became so spontaneous and never funny. Her words are all logical. But some times she tests the extreme boundary levels of our patience. Just cant guess, how way back parents used to manage kids independently that too with many no. of kids. Now Sanju alone keeps me, my mom, my brother, my husband all 4 of us on toes. Hmm, good that schools are there to share :)

Hammayya, rasesa oka post.

This is all for today, see ya later!

Very True

I heard this song so many times, but never thought of writing down the lyrics so i can read it again and again and realize how true the words are.

Today saw them on one of my friend's blog and thought i will get the lyrics from there. Its from Sushma's blog, Sushma...i hope you won't mind.

Movie: Gaayam
Lyrics: Sirivennela Seetarama Sastry

Niggadeesi adugu ee sigguleni janaanni
aggi toti kadugu ee samaaja jeevacchavanni
maaradu lokam maaradu kaalam
devudu digiraani evvaru emaipoyini

gaalivaatu gamanaaniki kaali baata deniki
gorre daatu mandaki nee gnanabodha deniki
echarithra nerchukundi pacchani paatham
ekshanaana maarchukundi chicchula maargam

raamabanamaarpindaa ravana kaashtam
krishna geeta aapinda nitya kurkshetram --niggadeesi--

Paata raati guhalu paalaraati gruhaalaaina..
adavi neethi maarinda enni yugaalaina
veta adey vetu adey naati kadhey antaa..
nattaduvulu nadiveedhiki nadichostey vintaa
balavantuley bratakaalani sookthi maravakundaa sataabdaalu chadavaleda ee aranyakanda
-- niggadeesi--

Am i wrong??, then who is right?

I'm back again with cribbing :) what to do, cant throw the blame on pregnancy hormones, but looks like they are taking me for a toss. I was never before like this. Like this means, thinking of the same issue again and again for hours together..in fact, days together.

How much ever i tell myself to stop banging my head with these crazy thoughts, i'm unable to control. In fact, they are bouncing off the head. God, give me the strength and wisdom to lead my thoughts in right direction. If not so, prevent me from going to evil path.

Some where down the line, i have been realizing that i'm not too RIGHT. But the other one too is not RIGHT. I'm MORE RIGHT than the other. Funny, Creepy right? That's how my state of mind is now. I might not be RIGHT, but the other one for sure is not RIGHT. So, if compromise has to make way, through whom it has to?? Whose responsibility is it to wave the path?? I don't mind taking it to my shoulders for the sake of relationship, but more than that, i think i have a greater responsibility to let the other person know that he is WRONGLY RIGHT and i cannot always be TAKEN FOR GRANTED to be labeled as RIGHTLY WRONG.

I know you might be scratching your head trying to understand whats WRONG with this gal..err...lady. That's what me too doing now. So happy scratching!!!!

idemi anyayam

hey...wait wait wait. Don't jump into the conclusions that i'm going to write about some really serious issues. This is very silly. munde cheppesa, silly ani. so just relax & read...

ma sanju gadiki ee madya kalam lo tours taggipoyayi. anthaku mundu ayithe sanju ni valla ammamma ni pilavani vallu papathmulu. ippudu madam school ki velthundi kada, so tours kudaradam ledu. monna oka bulli muni manavadini gadapalu datinche program ayyindi, papam school kada..vellalekapoyindi. sarle..oka function yega miss avuthundi anukuni oorkunnam. monnam inko buddodi birthday vachindi, vijayawada lo. appudu papam deeniki quarterly exams:) em chestham, adi kooda miss ayipoyindi. appude chuttallo sanubhoothi pavanalu start ayyayi, sanju ki dishti tagilesindi, anduke anni functions miss ayipothundi ani.

so, ivannee cover cheyyali kada. monna dussera holidays ivvagane, maku oka engagement function tagilindi VSKP lo. valla daddy ki, deeniki edayina function tagilindi ante chalu, annee perfect ga undali. cheppula nunchi, battala daka. valla ammayi ki manchi sandals yee levu anta ( ma intiki randi, oka 6-7 jathalu choopistha), okati konalsinde ani pattu patti danni, nannu teesukelli iddarikee chero jatha koni padesaru. naku 27yrs, daniki 3yrs. sandals cost mathram iddaridee equal ye. kanee ee sandals mathram bhale muddu ga unnayi. pattukellipoyam, all happies :) ninna ma nayanamma valla oorlo(yanamalakuduru-VJA) amma vari prathishta undi temple lo. aa oori adapillalu vellali anta. nenu aa oori adapillane, kanee nannu vadilesi ammamma, manavarallu chekkeyyadaniki ready ayipoyaru.

ippudu assalu twist :) amma ki na meeda super confidence, sanju battalu & accessories nenu super sardesthanu ani. nenu ofc nundi intiki vellgane nannu anne oka sari check cheyyamandi. tanu appatike annee sardesukundi, kanee nenu oka sari check chesi green signal isthe ado thutti. nenu check chesthoo chesthoo sanju vi monna konna kotha sandals cover choosa. appudu ma madhya jarigina conversation.

nenu: enduku amma extra luggage..ivi kavali anukunte velletappude ivi vesukuni vellochu kada??

amma: anthe antava, ive veesukuni vellipona, nenu ayithe mamoolu vi journey lo vesi, ivi oorlo veddam anukunna?

n: hmm, alana??...manchi sandals kada...assale gudi lo chala ekkuva rush untundi, evarayina kottestharu antava??

a: ala emee undadu anukunta le..

n: hmmm..anthe anthe. ala emee undadu. ive vesukuni vellipo. anavasaram ga malle extra pair enduku..motha baruvu kakapothe..

a: sare ayithe..aa cover teseyyi. vellemundu ave veddam.

ooru vellipoyaru. ninna poddunne gudiki kooda vellaru. andaroo konda kinda chuttalu unte, valla intlo cheppulu vadili vellaru anta. ma amma emo manvarali kallu kandipothayi aa konchem dooram cheppulu lekapothe ani..vesukuni velli konda 3/4 ekkaka vinayakudi gudi untundi. akkada vadilinchindi. full rush anta, prathishta motham choosi trupthi ga kindaki vachi choosthe, ma buddigadi cheppulu jump jilani. evaro ettesaru :( konda metlu choosthe full kalipothunnayi. sanju gadu jumpings meeda jumpings. amma choosthe mamoolu gane danni ettukoledu. inka metla meeda ante, no chance. inka appudu amma cheppulu daniki ichi, nana kashtalu padi intiki vacharu.
pothe poyayi cheppulu, mallee konukkovachu. kanee ippudu daniki vesukovadaniki cheppulu levu, aa oorlo cheppula shops levu (cheppula shops ante patamata/auto nagar daka vellalsinde, oka 15-20 mins walk untundi). amma nannu appudu enni titlu tittukuni untundo...idi emo intiki vellina daggara nunchi Kurkure kavali ani okate gola anta. ela teesukuni vellali shop ki?? ponee danni intlo vadili amma velli teesukoddam ante, akkada daniki alavatu ayinavallu amma tappa evaroo leru. top lepesthundi danni okadanne vadilesthe. mallee evo kashtalu padee padee, evarino bathimali vallatho teppincharu. ooriki vellina daggari nunchee boldu committments kada..andaru chuttala intiki vellali ani. evening nunchi aa program start. papam, sanju cheppulu lekundane anni illu tirigindi anta :( naku ayithe chala badha vesindi.

next day poddunne veellu Noojiveedu program pettukunnaru. ma atha koothuru untundi akkada. so, ee roju poddunne auto intiki teesukochi, bus stand daka velli, akkada konnaru mothaniki cheppulu. avee ma sanju gadi cheppula kashtalu.

ayina, devudu konni vishayallo enni appeals pettina respond avvadu. edo mata varasaki evarayina kottestharemo anagane, evarino puramayinchi marre kotteyinchade. idi anyayam kadoo mari????

ninna emi ayyindi ante....

ippudu i have to start telling you what happenned yesterday.

maku ippati nundee inko 2 months daka regular ga functions unnayi. mari functions ante hadavidi antha mana daggare kada...so Sanju ki manchi paatu langalu, dresses, gangras ippati nunchee konadam start cheyyali. alane, konni work kooda cheyyinchali anukuntunna. ma atha ki telisina oka avida works chala baga chesthundi. so nenu ninna ma atha ki cheppa, nenu vasthanu mee intiki. iddaram kalisi avida daggaraku veldam ani. sare mari, ippudu vellali kada?? ippudu na daggara scooty kooda ledu, assalu nannu drive cheyyanivvatledu intlo janalu. so, chitti shop ki velletappudu tanatho pate vellali. sare ani chitti ready ayyelopu nenu kooda ready ayipoya. idantha choosi sanju start. nenu kooda vasthanu nayanamma valla intiki ani. assale memu iddaram akkadi nunchee naduchukuntoo vellali aa work aunty daggaraki, inka sanju ni teesukuni velthe inka chachinatte. nenu tanani vaddu ani convince chesthoo undaga chitti manchi ga ready ayipoyi vacharu. valla daddy ni choodagane idi plate marchesindi. daddy, nannu kooda teesukuni vellava padma nayanamma daggaraki antooo. adi antha muddu ga adigesariki chitti na vaipu oka serious look ichi, ippudu danni edipinchoddu. manesthe nuvvu kooda maneyyi, ledante sanju ni kooda teesukuni vellu ani oka ultimatum issue chesaru. hmmm, em chestham. peddavallaki cheppetattu ledu, chinna vallaki cheppetattu ledu paristhithi. sare ani danni kooda gaba gaba aapasopalu paduthoo ready chesam nenu, amma kalisi.

chitti ki emo shop nundeee okate calls, inka tanaki full BP raise ayipoyindi. fasttttt, fastttt ani arupulu. mothaniki bayataki vacham. Sanju mundu tank meeda koorchovali kada, andukani rojooo chitti shop ki teesukuni velle intha pedda bag ni na mohana padesaru pattukomani. danti tho patu, na wallet okati. rendooo rendu chethulatho koorchuni bandi ekkano ledo.....eeyana sarrrr mantooo dookinchesaru. aa kangaru ki naku aa rendu luggagelani manage cheyyadam kashtam ayipoyindi. maha ayithe oka 10mtrs velli untam anthe. bag DAMALLL mani kinda padipothundi chethi nundi jaripoyyi. adi ekkada padipothundo ani pattukunelopala, inko chethi lo na wallet jaripothundi. ee rendintini balance chesthooo chesthooo, nenu jaripoya :( DING mani jaripoyyi CHITTTIIIIIII antoo oka gavu keka petta. a debba ki chitti sudden break vesi, venakki tirgi choosthe nenu kinda padi edupu moham tho kanipincha. okka nimisham emee ardham kaledu tanaki. emayyindi ante, bag jaripothundi ane kangaru lo bandi meeda nunchi padipoyya anna jali moham vesukuni. bag padithe, aapi teesukovachu..nuvvu kinda padipoyentha kangaru deniki antoo oka sympathy look icharu. nenu manasu lo anukunna....ippudu ante edo kinda paddanu, mokallu, mochethulu geerukupoyayi. kadilisthe edchesela unnanani bag padithe emayyindi annaru kanee, ade nijamga bag padipoyi nenu gundrayi la bandi meeda koorchuni bandi apamani ani unte, inka emanna unda????? naku oka range lo class peeki, aggi meeda guggilam ayipoyevallu kadooo, bag pattukodam kooda chetha kada ani, asale shop ki late ayipothunte nuvvu inka late chesthunnav antoo???

sare, na prayanam agipoyindi aa rojuki. buddi ga inti daggara dimpesaru iddarineee, ee roju kadu repu vellandi antoo. sare ani memu lopaliki vachesam. naku inko mogudu unnadu ga....ade ma sanju. start chesindi gola, sava laksha deergalu teesthooo. ayyo, baga debba tagilindi kada mummy, bag mundu pettukunna saripoyedi nuvvu padedanivi kadu....assalu manam vellakunda unte poyedi kada, neeku debbalu tagilevi kadu anukuntoo. nenu mallee swagatham lo anukunna...hmm assalu nuvvu vasthanu anakunda undi unte memu yee kangaru lekunda prasantham ga velli undevallam kada ani. papam, dani tappu mathram emundi lendi. eppudoo tesukuni veltham kabatti, ippudooo vasthanu andi.

idantha jarigithe jarigindi kanee, oka vishayam lo nenu full happies. papam, ma amma dettol lo tadipi cotton tho na debba meeda tudusthoo unte naku full manta. arusthunna...ammo manta ammo manta antoo. inka choodali sanju ni....adi kooda edupu moham vesukuni amma cheyyi gattiga pattesukundi. mummy ki manduthunte enduku ala chesthunnav antooo. ala kadu amma, ila tudavali, mandina kanee taggipothundi antunna vinade. okate godava godava. adi antha ayipoyaka, amma... melliga le, na cheyyi pattukuni naduvu, konchem sepu padukuntava antoo entha concern choopinchesindo...papam amma kooda antha kanna ekkuve concern choopinchindi anukondi... kanee manam amma aa concern choopisthe natural anukuntam...peddaga touch kadu. kanee chinna pilla, that too the one who got life through us, antha concern choopisthunte heart ala ala melt ayipoyindi.

adee ninna jarigindi.

Humanity

hmm..ee roju nenu ma friend (actually virtual friend through Orkut) blog chaduvuthoo unna....thana post lo okati nannu chala disturb chesindi. that post was about a married woman who got gang rapped by auto drivers...maree anyayam emiti ante, tana hubby tho patu unte, hubby ni kotti ameni auto lo teesukuni vellaranta, inka adi pedda city kooda kadu, ayina chuttu pakka vallu evaroo protest cheyyaledu, help cheyyaledu....how bad kada??? manam intha materialize ayipoyama anipinchindi, inka idena adavallaki unna security ani kooda anipinchindi... :( that was so sad. idi na mind lo chala gatti ga register ayipoyindi.

hmm...adi ala pakkana pedithe naku ee roju office lo konchem late ayyindi...ante 8:30 ayyindi. annayya ki phone cheddam ante appudu gurthu vachindi, tanu ivvala vehicle servicing ki ichadu ani. ayina phone chesa, atleast auto lo ayina kalisi vellochu kada ani. kanee, tanani tana friend drop chesthunnadu anta. hmm, atu choosthe full varsham aagakunda paduthoooone undi. sare ani, office boy ni auto teesukurammani pampincha. oka 20-30rs ekkuvayina parledu ani kooda cheppa, anthe kada mari asale late ayyindi, daniki todu varsham. auto vallu ravadame goppa anetlu undi paristhithi. konchem sepu agi office boy auto teesukuni vachadu, vachi auto meter fare ani cheppadu. nenu full khushhhh....meter fare ye kada ani ekki koorchunna. calm ga auto start chesadu. kanee mana mind undi choosaru, bhale kothidi. nenu mamoolu ga ayithe chala positive. eppudoo evaroo na meeda advantage teesukuntaru ani kanee, naku edo chedu chestharu ani kanee alochinchanu. emi chesina Bold gane chesthanu. ee roju aa blog chadiva kada..inka start ayyindi bhayam. asale ma office nunchi intiki velle route super route...military area, so manushulu ekkuvaga roads meeda tiragaru. varsham lo ayithe asalu tiragaru.

regular fare ke vasthunnadu, auto abbayi manchi vadenemo lo anukuntunna...emo assalu mind lo em intentions unnayoo ani inko vaipu bhayam. sarle ani cell chetho pattukuni dhairyam ga koorchhuna. appude oka bus stop datam. bus stop lo okame auto kosam choosthundi, ma auto ni empty auto nemo anukuni apindi, kanee ithanu agaledu. full varsham kada, papam anipinchindi. asale naku kooda okkadanne ani bhayam ga undi. sarle ani cheppi auto athani tho avida auto kosam choosthunnattu unnaru, mana route ayithe ekkinchukondi, parledu anna...athanu emo serious ga, emee vaddu lendi ayina dati vachesam kada annadu. naku bhayam inka ekkuva ayyindi. manchi vadu ayithe avida ni kooda ekkinchukovachu kada anipinchindi. varsham inka ekkuva ayipoyindi. assalu road meeda evvaroooo leru. ithanu matram auto teesukuni velthoone unnadu. oka 20mins full bhayam bhayam. teera inti daggara ki vachaka anipinchindi, abba entha manchi vado kada, situation ni batti ekkuva charge chesi advantage teesukokunda safe ga teesukuni vachadu anipinchindi. anthe auto digagane, auto meter fare kanna inko 20rs extra icha. athanu puzzled ga choosadu, nenu paravaledu, meeru intha varsham lo empty ga venakki vellali kada unchandi anesi thank you cheppi lopaliki vachesa.

intlo ki vachaka edo teliyani satisfaction. adi manushullo inka humanity undi anna na nammakam nijam ayinanduko, safe ga intiki vachesinanduko, leka aa 20rs extra ichi auto athanni happy chesinanduko teleeledu. kanee i was happy. ofcourse, aa 20rs athanu expect cheyyaledu, so nenu aa dabbulu ichi athaniki favor emee cheyyaledu. oka vela athanu demand chesi unte chachinattu ichi undalsinde. kanee enduko anandam. adi may be humanity ni encourage chesanu anna satisfaction tho anukunta.

nenu ichina a 20rs tho athanu plots konaledu, illu kattaledu. kanee nenu cheppali anukunna message athaniki reach ayye untundi kada..ante nenu athanu manchi ga undatanni encourage chesinatte kada....ee encouragement tho athanu aa manchitananni continue chesthe antha kanna kavalsindi emundi. emo, meeru adi athani responsibility athanu chesadu. danno pedda achievement la consider chesi athani lo leni poni thoughts provocate cheyyadam avasarama antaremo....emo mari, naku positive ga alochinchadam matrame telusu. athanu danni positive gane teesukuntadu ane nammakam naku undi.

Its all about you doing it, without thinking how tough it would be..

I learnt a lesson...I learnt a lesson today. Dont ask me if i'm going to implement the learning in my life right away...but i learnt a lesson that i should be reminded each day.

Today, my mom and pinni who came from Vijayawada went to chilkoor. both of them do not know how to go. They have never gone to that place without being accompained by any of us. But this time, they had to, as my pinni did not have time to stay back and we did not have time to take our daily routine to back seat. It takes them to catch a bus by 4:30AM, and then catch two other busses inorder to reach chilkoor. Mind you, its not bus after bus. They have to find a way to reach to those bus stops in between. So, me in my own style suggested them that they hire an auto. My husband with this own style of calculations, suggested to hire a car. My brother, with his unique thoughts, suggested that they use auto for half a distance and then bus to make it economical.
But my mom put her foot down and said that she can make it all through busses. We were little worried, you dont beleive...she made it all in busses. And both of them did not look tired.

You may be wondering, what lesson i learnt. Me, being this young, being this knowledgeble about the city, being this needful to travel everyday, fear that i get tired by travelling in busses to commute to office and i end up spending amount that is close to a fresher's salary. And i name it as cost for convenience.

I think its all about i restart commuting on busses, here the convenience is in mind but not in real.

Where are we heading???

I'm not sure where we are heading now....at one side women are empowered, standing on their strong foot, protecting their individuality. On the flip side, there is a news every day about how women are getting attacked for the reason of not being pet in their hands. When a man says "I want you", women are supposed to nod their heads and say OK. If not, she got to experience how acid burns the skin.


Today i'm literally shaken to read the news that a woman & kid was attacked with acid from that woman's husband. Reason being, she did not go to his place after repetive calls from him. So, he got frustrated and thrown the acid on wife & kid. Can a women do the same to him, when she was pissed off too??? Both wife & kid lost their eye sight. How poor is it? What did that kid do to get punished like that? How can a person be so cruel to throw acid on his very own kid?? Forget if its his kid or not, but, how could he do that on a kid. Who has given the right for him to burn the life of that little child?

There are laws about women empowerement, women safety and so much.....on contrary in reality, there is nothing. On Swapnika & Praneetha's acid case, all news channels, social service organizations made a huge protest, unable to bare that mounting pressure, police had encountered that culprit. But after that instance, how many culprits involved in women attacks got punished?

For every instance, does government expects a big shout & screams, only then, its takes some action? People who have committed these crimes are very much still roaming in this society. They should be locked in a dog house and given with dog food. They deserve it. They have no right to move around like humans. I heard about a case in which women fought for pouring acid in his eyes, by whom she got attacked with acid and lost the eye sight. After 12-15yrs, she got the judgement in her favour. Appreciable...but this should'nt have taken more than 12-15mins. These many years he lived life with full content, while the woman was suffering.

There needs to be a law to punish him right away with no courts & cases. He has DONE IT. Why one needs to know why he has done it??? Why he should be given with choice to voice?? Why cant the law be straight forward? If one attacks on women, there should be a punishment and it should be given right away. No arguments, No case, No delays, just the punishment.. Only then, mothers like me can be assured that their daughters are safe in this society.

Busy time - a time pass post

nenu chala busy, got reminded of Junior horlicks ad??? But, its true. i'm really busy, having a bunch of things to complete. So many things to do, but the only thing i'm doing now is to postpone all of them to the day next. Dont know, how long this saga continues. At one point, i might be slapped by some one and be ordered "DO IT RIGHT NOW"

Do you want to do that now???

My Sweet Sanju

Here i'm back again talking about Sanju....infact, i do not remember all of her naughty, wicked comments..otherwise this space wouldn't have been sufficient to quote all. She is so spontaneous.

Today morning i was feeling so...energy less. I was just lying on the bed, and here comes this girl patting me on my shoulder. My mom saw that and said, "lepoddu nanna...padukundi kada..", you know sanju's response --"nuvvu matladoddu, nenu na bangaru thalli ni kodathanu, nene kodathanu, nuvvu kottoddu".....Godd..do you see any relation here???

Summer!

Don't laugh. I just want to make myself active in blogging. I was thinking today sitting before the system on what to write, and the immediate thing that has come to my mind is this hot summer and its effect.

Godd...Its 41C today. Ofcourse, its not the highest on this summer. But, its hot for me as i think i took all the effect today. I went to office traveling 16KMs at 12PM and returned to another office which is again 7KMs travel. I am planning to return home between 5:30-6PM, this is of 9KMs. Not bad, right?

Sunscreen lotions, cleansers, fresheners...nothing is helping to get rid of summer effects. I wish, we were given a chance to sit back at home and work, having the power bills paid by office, ofcourse :)
Waiting for that day to come!

This summer also coupled another problem that is water scarcity, especially for us. God, its just impossible for our routine to be managed with limited water.

One last and important thing i must say is that this summer is very very special, as my brother is back to India. He just returned 10days back from US, but superrrrr busy all these days with office work. I am just looking forward for the days to have him free at home, so we can play WII, cards, bank, LUDO & many more games. You must be wondering if i was not planning to go office, chill out.., the games are planned to be during weekends.

Huhh...One more one more........You know what, i have my BIL's two kids also here. And sanju is on heights playing with them. Seeing them play together, i remember those old golden days where we used to play karra-billa, kothi kommachi, tokkudu billa, achanagayalu, puli-meka, goleelu, last but not least cricket aswell. so many kids, so many mango trees all around. Once we go out, our parents never knew where we are till we come back. On the way back, we used to surprise parents with little little wounds somewhere on body. Of course, they are reasonable, we used to do a lot of adventures too in robbing the mangoes, fighting with co-kids alleging that they cheated on some game. On contrary here, we aren't even letting kids go out of the compound gate. All the games they play are justttttt indoor.

Power cuts during nights while all elders talk lokabhi ramayanam on arugulu, we all kids used to play so many games like anthyakshari, veeri verri gummadi pandu.....hmmm........i feel like crying now. Today we are just machines, commuting between office and home. That liveliness is missing :)

I'm in no mood to write further, soo, bye for now. catch u later, till then have a happy summer!

Polling fever is over...now its results fever :)

Hmm...its may 14th. just 2 days left out to know the poll results. By this time on 16h, EVMs would have already revealed who is gonna king or king maker. Its strange this time. No one is confident, but everyone is sounding it.

Things are really interesting..
There were heavy loaded dialouges in launching of new party like "we will bring respect to politics, we will give response..but not the resistivity", on contrary we all heard the low class criticizm through its women's wing president. Goshhh....save these politics!

We have also seen the high voltage dramas from babayi & abbayi. Babayi was thumping his thighs continuously, while abbayi has done the same with our brains. Thanks to the accident abbayi met with, otherwise, we would have lost the golden opportunity of abbayi's addressing from the hospital bed. Dialouges were like screamings from lounges, while he was shown not being even able to sit on bed. Abbayi... movies can be logic less, but not politics!!! Hope you recover soon!

During the course of these 5 years, assembly witnessed the worst verbal war that could ever happen. From the most respected person of state, CM, there were words like, "aapavayya, mee amma ninnu enduku kannana ani siggupadela chesthanu"...It was like a faction movie dialouge!

Assembly has also become a place to teach how not to bring up kids, rather discussing the burning issues of state. After all, it has become clear that no one brought up their kids properly. Shame on our leaders!

All these years i was thinking that who could talk good, will be a good politician. But now, all it needs the topping of masala for the sole reason of being in news and attract crowd. What a change! Otherwise, we could have missed the dialouges like, "pavan kalyan, chiranjeevi entha mandini pakkalo padukopettukunnaro swetha pathram vidudala cheyyali". I wonder, if they are available for these kind of matters too. Not to mention, these dialouges are also from an established party's soo called women's wing president. Looks like women are so progressive these days. Way to go, three cheers ladies!

There was a leader who came up with brand new politics theme, doesnt ever seem to be the same on reality. The more simplicity he chants, the more ads we see on television for that party. He criticizes family politics and ask people to rule themselves. But when we go back, we can't see anyone else in that party except that leader, ofcourse, occassionaly his wife. Wait, There is a mass element here too. He cleaned the grounds after another new party's meeting was over and got enough publicity in media. Reason being, he want to teach all the parties about the importance of cleaning the place, not before the meeting but after. How generous? But after or before, i never seen him cleaning any ground. Why? Tired with just one? What an energy?? Lets take him as an example, just tell good things to your kids once. If they listen, thats fine. Otherwise, leave them to their fate. Dear sir, Cheat others, its still fine. Don't cheat yourself!

There is one more interesting thing here...alliances..no no..grand alliances. If this alliance forms the govt. this time, may be the leader has to spend all his time in retaining those co-parties rather concentrating on anything else. Alliance's life time is what the govt's life too. After all, you can't risk on loosing power!

All in all, i think there is no certainity for any party or leader. So, it will be too much on us to expect a stable & people side govt for the complete tenure of 5yrs. After all, its cash politics. Anyway, we have also witnessed how MPs have flashed bundles of cash in parliament. Nothing worse can happen!

All we can do now is chill out and wait for the results!

Sanju's Birthday - Contradictions

Sanju's 3rd Birthday.. - 24th April
This is something that we have been planning since not less than 2 months :)

Its the tradition that we follow to celebrate her birthday with a mid night cake, telugu year cake and evening party cake that follows with dinner. This time one more cake got added that is "School cake" :) In all the occasions we were happy because we could make her & see her happy.

People laughed at us for doing so much of hungama for this...few people have asked me in a sarcastic way on the face that how many years are you going to celebrate it....hmm...its our life...and we want to fill our life with as much possible fun as we could....whats harm for them???

It looked like a pain for them to attend the party..:( I think i'm flaring up. I know that they were thinking that we are doing hungama for silly things and spending money for worthless things...but why don't they try to understand the emotions of others....after all, if its worthless, we could'nt have spent it right?? And every one knows very well how my husband thinks before spending each rupee (I dont mean the otherway)

Anyway, it's evening time and we all are ready for the party. House is full with kiddies (nice to see so many kids at a time, though hard to manage) and the party went very well. One good thing is that the least expected guests have also made it to the party to make it graceful and the dinner we planned for 80 ended up with 140 people attending to it. We were so worried that the food items wouldn't be sufficient, but everything was OK. We had some surplus in fact (chicken curry is an exception)

One bad thing is that i had to attend office the next day in very early hours (read it in my context) The very thought of going early to office itself is squeezing all my zest to move along in the party. I wish i was given with leave next day seriously :) But no choice, we slept off around 1:30AM in the night, and i had to be up by 7AM :)

All in all, Sanju was happy with her birthday celebrations, cakes and gifts, so as we. She already started counting down the days for the next birthday...jaise ma aur dad, vaise hee voh bhee....

Free at its cost

• Disclaimer:
  This is my personal space & the views here are purely personal. No offence is intentional.
  
  If you are a resident of Andhra Pradesh, by this time you would have got tired of listening to this “Free” from almost of all the political parties. One party says they give free electricity power for farmers, the other says free money to unemployed and the other one says something else for free. Can they justify that they are the real solutions for the problems?
  
  Does the unemployed person just needs free money every month? Okay, if it is correct, how long can government keep giving that money? Will the unemployed ever be motivated to work? Can the unemployed ever improve his quality of life with this scheme? OK, they wanted to help them out, but have you ever seen the whole benefit reaching the real intendents? What are the measures you are taking to make sure that the funds are not misused? How much is the burden on government->state->people by giving everything free?
  
  Free electricity power given for 6 hours to the farmers. I really feel ashamed when I hear this statement and all the political parties are competing to give 6hrs, 12hrs and whole day free. Who needs this all damn? Electricity is the only problem for farmers? Let’s have a look at the problems they have.
  
  Lack of quality seeds
  Scarcity of fertilizers
  Power cut
  Lack of awareness about modern cultivation methods
  Lack of transport & warehousing
  Unable to get reasonable price for the products.
  
  When we have these many problems to solve, why are we just behind the free power usage? If you are giving it for free, they can never realize the value of it or end up in misusing it. Instead, make sure to supply quality seeds. Empower them with the ability to find out if they are of good quality or not. Concentrate on power generation, so they don’t have power cut. Not every farmer can buy expensive machinery for modernized cultivation. You buy them and start renting out to them with reasonable prices. Encourage the R&D on this. Let them adopt the new trends in cultivation and attain good productivity. In none other countries, people are at loss in doing cultivation except in ours. Because they are restructuring the methods and getting fruitful results. But here, I personally never saw any thing new here since my grandparent’s age. Pardon my ignorance if I am not right here.
  
  Basically, no one is interested to presume agriculture sector, because these days it’s a loss making activity. After crossing all the bottlenecks, at end they don’t get right price. It’s because of middle men’s intervention. Farmers cannot spend much on transportation & warehousing, instead they want to sell it off for any price to middle men. What if government come forward & provide these facilities? Of course, not for free of cost, but at a reasonable charge.
  
  After all, anything that is given for “free” would not be effective. “Free” cannot improve the efficiency; it can only be a burden on government. With the increased burden on government yet no improvement in efficiency, Can you say that state is in healthy position? If any one really wants to see the growth in state or in any sector, the focus should be on improving the productivity.
  
  Do not give free power, but keep us in a position to pay our bills while making the profits. We do not want anything to come “free”. After all, we are not beggars or do not want to become beggars. We want to empower ourselves with the ability to purchase the things we want. Introduce the quality systems with long term results. Not for the short term goal of vote banking.
  
  

Compromise

Hmm..this is one thing where I keep hearing different opinions from different people and sometimes different opinions from same people in different situations.Compromise…..for few it’s something that takes away their individuality, freedom and many more. For others, it gets happiness, relaxation and often good relationships too.

In my opinion..There is nothing wrong. Getting compromised is not as bad as it normally be perceived by large number of people. It’s some thing like give and take policy. You compromise and adjust on something to get something else that you weigh more. Otherwise you don’t compromise, it’s just that simple. So after all, why do you regret for the compromise you made? Why do you keep cribbing that I’m compromised due to this? At the end, it’s your wish. You wanted to let something go for the one you deliberately wanted to let in.
People say there should be a limit for everything. Again, everyone will have their own limits. You set your limit. Choose whether or not to compromise before you do it with all supporting calculations. Once you made it, don’t regret. Don’t crib. Don’t feel sorry. Don’t be self-pity. Don’t feel down. Whatever you make, make it with pride. Be happy with the compromise you made. Enjoy the fruits.


Never make statements like I’m compromised to join in Degree rather to join in Engineering as my parents can’t afford it. There you kept your parents in comfort position. Start liking the degree and try to excel there to reach higher position.

Never regret after getting married to a dark complexioned spouse against your wish to get a fair one. The truth is that you have surrendered yourself to the good qualities of the other. So, start making the life and enjoy every moment.

Never feel self-pity as you can’t buy diamond necklace due to the budget constraints. You did your calculations; otherwise, you would have waited some more time for the diamond one rather the gold necklace you bought now. There is a lot of life before; you can get them anytime later.

For the things you cannot change now, start to love them.
For the things you can change, aspire and work to get the shape you want.

Accept the life as it comes to you and keep smiling in every moment. After all, life is very short; don’t let any single moment go unproductive for you.

Sanju's tactics

Normally once the DH is back from shop around 10:30, he makes sure to take her out for a ride. Sanju always insists me to join. There was never a day she went alone with my hubby when i am home.
Yesterday was little different, soon she saw her dad coming in, she ran out and they both went out. I just got slipped out of her mind. After the return, i told her that i am not going to speak to her as she didnt call me for the ride. She kept a sorry face and told this dialogue -
"Its dark outside, i was worried that you get scared". Huh!!! I have no option except to feel good as she is SSSSOOO..... CARING :(

Diwali

This Diwali was special as my brother-in-law's 2 boys were also here with us. Those two were so naughty, that we cant manage. And Sanju is a bonus to them.

I designed a dress (chudi dar) for sanju for this occassion. So, in afternoon we went to all our relatives places with a small sweet box. Enough of publicity for her dress [:)]

Evening, we started burning crackers. Initially sanju was little taken a back. But its just for 2 mins. Once she saw her brothers doing it, she could'nt stop herself. We thought she will just do it with sparkles, pencils and all other simple girly things. Soon after she saw her dad lightening flower pots & chakras, she too started doing it. Ofcourse, with her dad's supervision anyway. She want to have all the crackers, not even a single one to go for her brothers. After all, she is 2.6 and they are 8 & 10. Female domination :) Sthree sadhikaratha.

Sanju for fancy dress competetion

In Sanju's school, every satday is a fun day. On satday, they conduct different kind of activities, so kids love to come back on monday. So last satday, it was a fancy dress competetion. All kids were asked to dress up like Doctor, teacher, driver, post man.....whom so ever gives their service to us in daily routine.
Initial thought was to dress up like a teacher in a saree, later we thought we can best utilize her fun medical kit by letting her go in doctor dress. So, we dressed her up in a saree with a doctor over coat and a stethoscope around the neck. She was perfectly looking like a jr doctor. She was to go school at 8:30 and parents to go at 10:30. You know what, she won the second prize from her class.

Worth mention, her class strength is 6 and only two participated for the competetion. Both of them as doctors..[:)]. Hmm...not badd

Sanju started going to school!

Hi,

atlast......after much discussion and analysis, we finally made Sanju (My 2.5yrs old daughter) to join Nursery (he he he) in the school which is just a few steps away from home.

First day in school:
We went to temple, from there after we took Sanju to the school to admit her. Sanju was all excited to join as we prepared her so much by telling that she will have a lot of friends out there...While sanju is excited, i was tensed. Atlast, we finished the formalities and joined her to the nursery class.. there was a group of kids with innocent smiles and looks. When i told Sanju that i am leaving, she was not ready to accept..she wanted me to accompany her there. Teacher told me not to worry about her and leave, after some time she will be able to adjust.. as soon as she heard those words, she started crying. I was like all puzzled and somehow felt very bad that she had to live for 4hrs in the world of dislike everyday. I thought for a moment to pick her up, but there my husband standing and told me not to. Teacher was again to her job reassuring me that she will stop crying and can easily mingle with other kids soon. She was showing me an example of one boy who joined the school in june and till today cries when dropped at school. This made me real worried. Huh!, i had to leave. I made myself strong and walked out of their room overhearing her cry. The time was 10:45AM. We went to principal room to complete few more formalities, but still could make out that she's crying. By the time we finish everything and ready to leave, huh! she is still crying. It was 11:15AM by then. She had to be in school till 12PM.

By 11:30, my mother...NO NO.... now Sanju's grand mother (She's popular that way in our near n dear) was all hurry to go to school to pick her up. Tell you what, it just takes 2 mins to reach that school. Okay..she went to the school and as Sanju heard the voice of her grand mother bursted out into tears with loud voice. She was crying all that time...Its first time in history for Sanju to cry for such a long time. She came home and complained that she didnt like the school at all. Another complaint made to my grandparents (you read it right, they are my grand parents, not hers) is that we left her in school all alone.

Hmm..second day in school. I knew that i am not strong enough to drop her in school when she was crying. So, its her father and herself headed to school. She is like half minded to start, but was not crying. I thought today she will be okay. But NO, as my hubby dropped her there...she started crying and asking to take her back. But this guy is real persistent. He came home. We called up school after about 20 mins and happy to hear that she stopped crying...good sign, isn't it? Routine follows, her grandma to pick her up and Sanju to follow.

Third day in school. She was not ready to dress her up. Quite reluctant to go school. But we forcefully let her start, as we gave the school bag to her, she started crying. I thought this day would be hard. Husband dropped her at school and came home. I asked how is she?, with helpless facial expressions he said she is crying like anything. As usual, mom went to pick her up....here comes the big SURPRISE...Sanju was reluctant to come with her...she wants to be in school. Ohhhhh, what caused this big difference.....Yeah! they took those kids to near by park in school bus and engaged them in play. She came home with bright face and sparkling eyes, when i asked her how the school is.., she said Oh! its nice. Hmm...I'm releived. And she was telling that she would go to school even tomorrow. Ahhhhhhh..tomorrow? Tomorrow is SUNDAY..what to doooooooooooo?